No, I didn't mean it like that. The part you quoted, I was joking. (I need to learn to use more emoticons, I guess.) The part about the panel was more of my lack of interest rather than me degrading it. I apologize for that. And I am apologizing for it rather than you taking it the wrong way. (Though I can't honestly say that sounds much better, either.)
If you will notice, I was a bit more optimistic about it after I realized I would have more time than I had previously thought. I was only down on the other panelists because I was upset...not saying that's a good excuse, but...well...
I will understand if you do not wish to run into me at the con. My comments were in poor taste and no longer reflect my attitude and I do apologize.