Hey ya GW, long time no see n_n .
So for anyone who's been wondering where I've been, with COVID and Winter set in I coudn't get on my Tablet much. For Christmas, my family decided they were gonna take my dad on vacation to Tennessee. With the exception my myself and my oldest brother of course. I got the privilege of staying home, watching mine and my father's house and his Chickens, My brother's House and his cats and having to do my job too -_- . That was a couple of months ago.
Shortly before they left, I finally broke down and got Spectrum TV, Internet and Phone installed in our house, and just last month I got a computer that my best friends brother made for me for about $400 n_n . I've spent the last month getting it set up and what not and I'm on Steam now too n_n .
Now comes the really bad news. Couple of weeks ago, I was helping out a Coustomer at work, a very sweet and nice older lady who appreciated my help. That is, until it came time to check out. We had trouble with the machine. It wouldn't take her coins. I was trying hard to get it to work, but no matter what I did, it wouldn't work and she just got madder and madder at me until my manager came over and helped, but she still wanted a refund for some of her food because she had to make another stop and was worried they would melt.
This of course left me feeling rotten the rest of the day. So much so that I got stuck in my own head, which dragged up all my past failures and made me feel like a rotten, miserable failure, to the point I almost broke down crying and wanting to brake stuff -_- ...Somehow though, I managed to pull myself back together, but of course my Supervisor was standing right beside me and asked if I was alright. Of course I lied through my teeth and told her I was because I still had a job to do. The rest of the day I just felt like miserable shit, but of course I had to keep working with a smile on my face -_- .
I told a frined of mine about this later and he said I was haveing an Emotinal Brake Down, and I most likely suffer from depression -_- . So on top of having to find a new job, I now also need to find a head shrink -_- . Joy, joy, joy -_- .